Passed away on August 14, 2005 . 8 pm




I would like to use this section to include some of the poetry I have written for, and because of Max.

For Max

A life full of promise, and expectation
Gone without a breath
For 40 minutes, they worked on you
for 40 minutes you did not fight
I never fely you warm
I never knew your life outside my body
A promise of life that was not fulfilled
A wish for a future that would never be granted
A question lingering in my mind
 never to be answered.
The sweetness of your breath
The smoothness of yoru skin
Teh softness of your hair
The warm sunshine upon your face
A twinkle in your eye
The sweetness of your suckle
A grin upono your face
The feel or your embrace

What kind of man would you have been?
Strong and bold, yet sweet and gentle?
A smile like your daddy
A wit like your mother
A guardian of the heart, oweing to no other

Here is my wish for you,
 my precious baby boy.
That you spend each day in Heaven
 knowing love like no other
That you dance in the sunshine
 and never cry in the rain
That you feel my love as I whisper to you
That you never feel cold or alone
And that when we meet again,
You welcome me with a warm embrace.
For all that....
You will finally see a smile upon my face.

When I Wished Upon a Star

I wished upon a star one day
And nothing really happened
So I decided to wait and see
What fate would bring my way

A hum drum life of the 
Same old same proved to be my curse
So I tempted fate once again
Believing life couldn't get much worse

I waited for a stary night
Clear as it could be
I closed my eyes and held on tight
To a dream that I might see

I sent my wish up to heaven
Asking for a son
A wish I hoped that over time
Could never come undone

As fate would have it one fine day
A second line appeared
Knowing deep in my heart
that my wish had finally neared

As time went by 
My belly began to grow
A son inside I did soon learn
My heart so full of pride

As months went by
His kicks grew strong
Letting me know
nothing could be wrong

Then one Sunday he decided
It was his day to come
As the pain grew worse, my body numb
His kicks gently slipped away

Hours did pass til I awoke
To my newly broken heart
As my head did clear, I discovered 
We would forever be apart

As I lay in my room
Broken as could be
Stairing at the cold yellow walls
A nursery rhyme repeated itself to me

They left out a part you see
That when the bough breaks 
and the cradle does fall
The baby will go to Heaven

I made a wish upon a star
And all my dreams were shatterd
I guess I wish upon the wrong star
to it... my dreams never really mattered


Lullaby for a Broken Heart
(written for my uterine rupture sisters)

I wish I could heal your broken heart.
I wish I could ease your pain.
I wish I could comfort you at night,
 when you scream your baby's name.
I wish I could be there when your nights are long.
 and all you feel is pain.
Or just sit with you on a cloudy day,
 and listen to the rain.
I wish I could teach your heart a beautiful song
A song that would bring you comfort
A song that would dry your tears
A song that in itself,
 could chase away all of your fears
A song that would bring you light
 in your darkest hour
A song that would raise you up,
 and offer you some power
A song that could make you smile once again
A song that could show you no matter what
 I will forever be your friend.
A lullaby for a broken heart
Helping you to mend.

Angel MOMS
(written for my fellow Angel moms in my UR support group)

We all share a bond
Not formed in blood, or by law, or by faith
But a bond of a grief given sisterhood

We long for our babies
We miss them so much
Together our arms long for 
 the warmth of their touch

In our grief we are not alone
We have each other in this 
 our new found home

A sisterhood of caring
A {{{{Hug}}} that means so much
For a heart that needs mending
 we offer a warm, loving touch


For Hayley
(another Angel mom, and good friend of mine.
  Daphne-Tindall.memory-of.com)

When I think of sadness
 I think of you
When I think of despair
 I think of you
When I think of a heart that is broken
 I think of you

When I think of shoulders
 I think of me
I have two, an extra
One for me, and one for you
God gave me two ears too!

I lend you my strength
 for as long as you need it
I lend you my ear
 when you need to scream WHY!!!
I lend you my heart 
 because I know yours is broken

I wish you peace, and sleep
And the knowledge 
 that your Angel is near
I wish you a heart full of happiness
 and a lifetime free from fear

For we know what the end will bring
 A reunion beyond all dreams